One World

*note: meant to be like a rap

They often say it’s darkest
Before the light of dawn
They say that you will suffer
Before the battle’s won

They say wise words
But do they ever act
Before the souls of innocents
Start fillin up our past

[pre-chorus]
So why do we just stand by
Closing off the lights?
And will it be too late
When we try to stop this fight?

[Chorus]
This is one world
Stop playin with their lives
Start bringing home the children
They’re payin for our lives
This is one world
Let love rain from the skies
Stop polluting with the violence
Let freedom take you high
This is one world. Yeah

I despise all the politics
They’ll never tell the truth
Just pump you full of propaganda
They’ll choke you with their news

I never let them bring me down
I turn around and say
I believe in our people
And our love will save the day

[Pre-chorus]
So don’t just stand by
Closing off the light
Don’t let it be too late
Cuz we gotta end this fight

[Chorus till fade]

Heartbreak

(note: to the tune of Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer)

I guess it’s really for the best

I guess it’s time we both moved on

Maybe time will mend our wounds now

No sense in throwing blame around

How did we let it get this far?

When did our love begin to fall?

How did we ever fool ourselves

And think we really had it all?

[Chorus]

It’s breaking down

And we’ve played it through

It’s breaking down

And I know we had to

So tell me,

Is this what love’s supposed to do?

I know that tears don’t fall from glass stones

I’m fighting hard to just stay calm

Why did you turn your back and walk out?

Baby, did you ever fight for us at all?

I fell in love the day I met you

The day you held me in your arms

But now im sittin and im wishin

That I’d never let you kiss me cuz I’ll never move on

[Chorus to fade]

Day 7 - A Picture Of You When You Were Little

Day 6 - A Blog

THIS ONE! :) I'd post Jason Mraz's blog but he took it down :( OH! check out hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com AWESOME blog :)

Day 5 - A Person You Miss

I tend not to miss people unless they mean a lot to me. It's hard for me to connect with people because of my trust issues and all, but when I do, I'm fiercely loyal. I guess the people I miss most are my CPOI family. I bonded on a level that I can't even articulate - and that's the best kind of bonding in my opinion. Hopefully we'll have a reunion soon :)

Day 4 - A Goal

Goals. Sometimes they are quite hard to define. Or accomplish for that matter. I find myself taking it easy these days - not many goals to worry about. Then again it's summer so really, I should just be worried about hanging out with friends before the grueling year of Orgo and Cell Bio starts.

As of now, my goals consist of fasting all 30 days of Ramadan and being open-minded. As for later, I guess my number one priority during the year will be to get straight As. Hey, you gotta reach for the stars so if you fall, you'll land on the clouds ;)

Why Does My Heart Cry So?

Why does my heart cry so?

The earth has been crumbling

The nightingale has flown

Why does my heart cry so?

The fathers are dying

The sons gave the blow

Why does my heart cry so?

We are not listening

Our ears have been cloaked

Why does my heart cry so?

The words we are speaking

The hurt our hearts more

Why does my heart cry so?

Our faith has been broken

His trust we’ve ignored

Why does my heart cry so?

We don’t feel our shame

Our guilt we don’t know

Why does my heart cry so?

Hell’s flames have been lit

No care we have, though

Why does my heart cry so?

Such monsters we are

Forsaking God’s love

Why does my heart cry so?

Lest we turn our ways,

To Hell we shall go

My heart, don’t cry so

His words, they will soothe you

Peaceful river’s flow

On The River Bank, I Sat And Wept

On the river bank, I sat and wept

Undeterred by the silent stares

On the river bank, I sat and wept

Drowning my sorrows, my pains, my cares

On the river bank, I sat and wept

And watched the sunset rise

On the river bank, I sat and wept

The winds howled beneath the night sky

On the river bank, I sat and wept

My heart yearned for my lost love

On the river bank, I sat and wept

Love’s essence still fills my blood

On the river bank, I sat and wept

Watching my reflection below

On the river bank, I sat and wept

Through seasons of rain and fire and snow

On the river bank, I sat and wept

And still the burden would not lift

On the river bank, I sat and wept

I sat there and waited for death’s cold lips

On the river bank, I sat and wept

And wrote my story with tears (salt?), not pen

On the river bank, I sat and wept

I yearn for the day I meet my lost love again

Day 2 - A Hobby

Well I have many activities that I would consider my hobbies but nothing I would take seriously. Then there are things that I would like to consider my hobbies but I do not have either the time or the money to do them. I love the arts and particularly lean towards auditory art – music. Ever since I can remember, I’ve only been able to connect to people through my music – whether it be making friends at a new school or making an awkward family dinner not-so-awkward. I do not just like listening to music though. I’ve dabbled in pretty much every aspect of it – writing it, critiquing it, listening to it, composing it, just not recording/selling it. I began by writing poetry in my tween years, often using “cataclysmic events” or “mind-blowing” discoveries at that time. Looking back at my “poetry”, I am amused by my quite-apparent immaturity. Yet at the same time, I am aware of my own growth as a person. That is what I love most about the arts – you begin to discover yourself the longer you are immersed in it. I would like to try my hand at photography – it’s quite an interesting science. I tried drawing and painting but I was never satisfied with my results, not that I am always happy with my poems or lyrics now. Overall, the satisfaction I gain from writing lyrics are generally greater than my poor attempt at abstract art or portraits. So I guess those are my current hobbies but I hope to expand beyond the realm of art/music.

Day 3 - A Thing That's On Your Mind

I’ve recently been thinking about the reason for my existence. Sometimes, I feel as though my life here has no purpose whatsoever and I am wasting my time. I often wonder what I will do with my life and if I’m on the right path career-wise. I really love music and want to go into the music business but I’m afraid I won’t be successful since I haven’t researched that deeply into it. I don’t know what I’d be getting myself into. I love writing lyrics and feel like that’s the best way I relate to people because I can pour out my feelings without being judged. I don’t really know how to talk to people so I put up a front and act like I don’t give two craps about what others think of me which is THE farthest thing from the truth. Honestly, I find that when I’m true to myself, I’m a very insecure person. I think it stems from immigrating to America at a young age with no idea of how people are like. Because of this, I found that I didn’t know how to approach people and couldn’t relate. At times, I found myself wishing that I had been born white so it would be easier for me to make friends and relate to others. I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin and then when I found that I didn’t look like others – I was chubby and had acne and wasn’t attractive. That led to self-esteem issues that I’m dealing with to this day. I still look in the mirror and am unhappy with the person looking back. This leads to me being discouraged with everything I do. I feel as though I’m not good enough. The worst part is that I don’t know if I’ll ever get over it. I am painfully reserved and would rather sit in a room by myself rather than interact with people. I tend to think that people will let me down because of my experiences in the past with “friends”. I guess I have to suck it up and move on but it’s easier said than done. That’s why I relate to music as well as books – they won’t let you down. This is why I write a lot – it’s therapeutic and helps me escape and be who I want to be. Because of my insecurities, I tend to act rude and come off as “ghetto”. I feel that acting like this will prevent people from talking to me and just leaving me alone so I don’t get hurt again. But it ends up giving me a bad rep. so either way I lose. And this way, I tend to hurt the people I love because they have to suffer for my actions. But time to stop the wallowing-in-my-self-pity and move on. I haven’t written all I wanted to but I get depressed when talking about this so I’ll leave it for another day. And excuse the horrible grammar. I’ll do better next time. Promise.

Day 1 - A paragraph about yourself

Well this one is tough. I generally do not like to talk about myself. I would rather let others talk so I can just listen and learn from them. I also like to sit in silence. I find that you can learn a lot about someone just by sitting in his or her company. I am very introverted and shy around people I do not know, but put me in a room with my best friends and I will be cracking jokes left and right and laughing 'til the point of tears. I find that I can be very judgmental – often about people, not so much about books. It is not something that I am proud of, but sometimes it comes in handy when I am judging someone's character for the first time. I find that I am close to the mark - that can be a blessing or a curse depending on views about socializing. I mostly like to read and write songs or poetry. I like to think a lot about random topics. Since I am an English Major, I love to write and I pay attention to grammar (most of the time). I tend not to get angry easily but when I do, I do not like to talk about it. I tend to bottle things up and that sometimes creates negative emotions that fester until I blow up. I try to write out my emotions in a song or poem but that only helps sometimes. If you do something to hurt me or the people I love, I get very angry and I hold a grudge – at least until you apologize. I love music – it is an addiction along with gum. I like to ramble. I am a kid at heart and I love it. I think that is all. Oh, I love to eat, travel, and have fun. In addition, I love my friends and family. The end!

I stole this from a friend ... shhhhh!

The "A" Challenge - I'll try to post regularly but i'm not promising anything.

Day 1 - A paragraph about yourself

Day 2 - A hobby

Day 3 - A thing that's on your mind

Day 4 - A goal

Day 5 - A person you miss

Day 6 - A blog

Day 7 - A picture of you when you were little

Day 8 - A pet peeve

Day 9 - A show

Day 10 - An insecurity

Day 11 - An actor

Day 12 - A thing that worries you

Day 13 - A list of favorite memories

Day 14 - A bad habit

Day 15 - A wish

Day 16 - A picture you took

Day 17 - A secret

Day 18 - A thing you're afraid of

Day 19 - A recipe

Day 20 - A picture of your "crew"

Day 21 - A dream you had recently

Day 22 - A thing you do every day

Day 23 - A meme

Day 24 - A topic that makes you think

Day 25 - A song

Day 26 - A thing you want to do before you die

Day 27 - A thing that makes you mad

Day 28 - A quote

Day 29 - A place that gives you wanderlust

Day 30 - A future

Gone

7 Sitting by your window sill

7 Tracing raindrops with your hand

5 You wonder why this

5 World keeps standing still

7 See the moonlight spill so bright

7 Across the never-ending sky

5 Reflections fade and

5 Something’s bound to break

6 Time begins to slow down

6 Nothing here to save now

6 Change is in the fall out

6 Your tears won’t let you see

7 The rain keeps beating down

7 Your feet are on the ground

6 If you never come back

6 You’ll never feel the pain

7 It’s been a few years, but now

7 Your heart’s started wondering how

6 Made it this far to see

6 Freedom doesn’t taste sweet

7 Trying to find your missing piece

7 Dreams have hit reality

5 An echo faded

5 Fits your destiny

7 Sinking back into the crowd

7 Know you’ll never make it out

5 The days have passed and

5 You’re afraid to shout

[Bridge]

[Chorus x2 till fade]

Twisted Love

Twisted Love (syllables next to the lines)

[v1]

6 She’s calling out your name

5 She knows it’s over

7 Broken down and drowned in rain

6 No one seems to know her

[v2]

6 It’s hard to see the light

5 When you’ve been blinded

7 By the darkness brought to life

6 Trapped her soul and bound it

[Bridge]

5 And you didn’t know

5 The pain she felt when

5 Your teardrops burned through

5 The broken bones and

[Chorus]

6 Your cries mean nothing when

5 Your hand keeps squeezing

6 The soul right out of her

5 Her blood keeps screaming

6 But no she won’t give in

5 To your blackened heart

6 Your twisted sense of love

6 Your twisted, hurtful love

[v3]

6 It’s hard to move your feet

5 When all you see is

7 Empty lives on empty streets

6 The light’s gone off inside

[v4]

6 Her world’s turned shades of gray

5 And you’re the painter

7 Heartlessly keeping her caged

6 Breaking the will in her

[v5]

6 She’s figured out your game

5 And she’s not staying cause

7 In this game she’ll never win

6 This ain’t love – this is sin

[Bridge]

[Chorus x2]

[repeat last 2 lines of chorus]

New Song :D

My mojo is BACK!

Home

Starin at the sky

You forget where you’re walking to

Don’t know where to turn

Cause you’re scared you’ll never follow through

Scattering the leaves

As you run past the boulevards

Bringing back the memories

That occupy your beating heart

[Bridge]

Gotta run, gotta hide

Gotta get past all the lies

Never try, you’ll never win

Never holding back again

[Chorus]

Oh!

Forget what you’ve been told

They can’t chain up your soul

You can’t keep holding back

And this time

You’ll find your way home

You can’t waste all your tears

Trapped by all your fears

You gotta prove them wrong

And you’ll see

You’re on your way home

Running round in circles

As you try to find an open gate

Not realizing as you turn

You’re making all your past mistakes

Minutes into hours

Your life is like an hourglass

Sand is piling up

And you’re waiting for this dream to pass

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

Open up your eyes

Reflections fading as you see

You’re waiting for the stars

But you’re only looking at your feet

[Chorus x2]

[Repeat last part of chorus]

NEW SONG :D

It's been a while...

Before ya'll freak out - this song was written for my best friend. When you read this, keep in mind that there are about 6 years of hardcore friendship involved and that I love this kid like my own blood and he will always be my first love. It's just dedicated to a special person in my life who has done a lot for me and i wanted to thank him and let him know he'll always have a special place in my heart :)


Cherish You From Afar (For Josh)

Hey boy,
I know it’s kinda late but
I’m scared
Of going to bed feeling lonely

Won’t you
Stay up with me tonight and
Tell me
That things will be alright cuz

I know
That you’re the one who’ll hold my hand 
Guide me
Through all the darkness in my life

You’ve been 
The shoulder I can always lean on
I count
On you to catch my tears and keep me strong

[Bridge 1]
And I know that
Even if were miles apart
Tonight you’ll be
With me in my heart

[Chorus]
Even if
You don’t see me the same way
I know
That you and I will be okay
Just know
That I will cherish you from afar
You’ll always
Hold a special place in my heart

Hey boy,
You’re the song running through me
Each morning
And even in my dreams

You’ve always
Made me feel so beautiful
Even when
My tears have stained my soul

You’ve taught me
How to find the joy in sad times
Been there for me
Even when I made you cry

You’re the best
Friend a girl could ever ask for
And that’s why
It’s the truth you need to know

I thought
That I could never tell you
All the reasons
Why I fell so hard for you

There are
A million reasons why I love you
But there are more
For why I cannot be with you

[Bridge 2]
And I know that
There are many fishes in the sea
But you’re the only one
That ever really got me

[Bridge 1]

[Chorus x2]

[Repeat first verse]